Churning in my stomach
YEP…it’s testing season. And those are just the emotions I am feeling. I can not begin to imagine what my Freshman are going through. In the next two weeks, my sweet baby Freshman will have to recall EVERYTHING they have learned (or were suppossed to learn) not only for my class, but for 2 other classes.
When did the value of education get reduced to the performance on a test on a single day.
This is the view that I saw this morning as I made my drive in to work. As I drove, I could not help but realize the role we as humans play on this earth. I know to some it may seem menial but my perception tells me otherwise. I feel that I can make my mark and leave a positive impression on those around me…or at least try.
This image takes me back to a video clip that our ministry team showed at church one Sunday. The Awe Factor of God shows just how magnificent He is in His creation. The magnitude of space is indescribable.
I had a serious discussion with a student just yesterday. He came in to the office, sat down and asked me some deep, spiritual questions and I found myself having a difficult time explaining my thoughts. I know what I feel and what I believe but vocalizing those thoughts was hard. The main question he asked me and it has stuck with me is “if in the end we are all we have left, then why does everything else matter?” WOW….I honestly could not find a way to answer that. I know how I feel but putting those thoughts into words has been a challenge and a constant thought on my mind since our conversation.
How would you have answered the student’s question?
ME!!!! It’s ME!!! I won!!!
I found out that I am known as the MEANEST teacher in the high school. I can not tell you how happy that makes me. OKAY OKAY…let me explain.
The upper classmen have told the freshmen that I am the meanest and hardest teacher…little do they know that I actually love every single one of them. I just have high expectations. Such as
NO you may not use a pencil in my class….use pen. Be confident in what you write. Make it legible and stand by it.
NO you may not say what and yeah in my class…you may say excuse me and yes ma’am. get use to being polite. It is what society expects.
NO you may not say ugly words in my class such as suck, hate, shut up…I loathe those words…increase your vocabulary.
NO I do not allow you to sleep in my class…what I am saying is important and rudeness is not tolerated.
YES you may have snacks in my room…I understand that you are growing teenagers and I have no idea if you ate dinner last night or breakfast this morning…just clean up after yourself…and try and make it a healthy snack!
YES I understand that you also have a life and responsibilities outside of Room 102…talk to me, I am human and I understand that you may not have finished your homework last night because you had to babysit…AGAIN.
YES I care about you…I want you to succeed and become a contributing member to society.
Little so they know that I do care and all of my meanness will be understood later in life.
Well, it’s nearly over. I can’t believe how fast the first week of school went. I have the feeling that this is going to be a great year. I forget how awesome freshman are. I haven’t taught them since my first year….7 years ago. The innocence mixed with cockiness (trying to compensate for being low man on totem pole) is interesting to watch.
Is it just me or do 14-15 year olds seem smaller than they were ten years ago???
I promised some interesting stories…sorry to say that nothing has been noteworthy quite yet. I do have a student who I plan on making my top priority. He is a student that puts up a lot of defensive…acts hard (tough) but I think there is more than mets the eye. We will call him “J.” I hope to see him positively improve over the course of the year.
P.S. Thank goodness for Advocare’s SPARK…not sure I could have made it through 2pm without one. Teachers….this stuff is your friend. One little packet gives you awesome energy and mental focus without feeling jittery and its sugar free. Contact me and I can share more about it. SPARK comes in 6 delicious flavors!!!
And we are off…..
For many of us in the world of education, Monday is the day! I say that with an exclamation point because I am so ready for Monday to come. I can not wait to see the awesome kids that I will be teaching. I can not wait for the sound of chatter and lockers slamming during passing period. I can not wait to have lunch with my fellow co-workers. I am so excited!!
I am that teacher that gets excited about in-service, but I am happy it’s over and we can start doing what we were chosen to do- impact students’ lives, educate our future leaders and spread hope and love to those that so desperately seek (need) it. Remember why we do it. It is ultimately ALL for the students…even the “bad” ones.
I am sure I will have funny stories this year, as I am teaching all freshman…don’t worry, I will share them!
Have a great school year and thank you again for taking the time to read my thoughts!!