Churning in my stomach
YEP…it’s testing season. And those are just the emotions I am feeling. I can not begin to imagine what my Freshman are going through. In the next two weeks, my sweet baby Freshman will have to recall EVERYTHING they have learned (or were suppossed to learn) not only for my class, but for 2 other classes.
When did the value of education get reduced to the performance on a test on a single day.
excuse the blurryness…they wouldn’t hold still for a moment!!
My heart swells with pride watching my children enjoy life. I hope to be a student of them as much as they are a student of me.
My daughter says hello to every one that passes by…everyone. It doesn’t matter if we are on foot or in a car. She is waving and saying hello. I absolutely love and admire her unconditional acceptance of people. As adults, I wish we all had more of that. It seems that our environment and experiences make us hesitant to embrace those who are different. I want that back!!!
My son…he can enter a new environment, be it a soccer field, school classroom or a mall playground and make instant friends. His imagination is limitless. He and a boy he met at the playground last night played for a solid 30 minutes and their imagination was incredible. They didn’t care who was around or who overheard their elaborate scheme. They just played. I want that back!!!
I love spending time with my kids and understanding that they can teach me sometimes more than I can teach them….at just at the right time.
I know that the Sandy Hook Elementary tragedy is on everyone’s mind. This morning it was on the news and mentioned on several of the radio stations I listen to in the morning. The victims were honored at a memorial last night and many of the children were being buried today.
As a member of the education world and a mom, I feel like I am affected by this times 2. I try not to watch or read too much because the senseless event breaks my heart too much; however, I feel like I need to stay attuned to the details because I too am an employee of a school system who is not immune to such tragedies.
I sit here and wonder what in life is so terrible that a person had to open fire on children and adults…but seriously…children. What purpose is there in killing a group of 6 and 7 year olds. What makes me even angrier is that the man took his own life and we may never know the answers to questions.
Moms hug your children extra tight tonight. Spend a little extra time with them. Teachers and administrators….spend some time making sure your campus is up to date with lock down information, drills and safety precautions.
I pray for the parents, family and friends of all those victims. The courageous heroes that died protecting their students and the innocence taken.
This is the view that I saw this morning as I made my drive in to work. As I drove, I could not help but realize the role we as humans play on this earth. I know to some it may seem menial but my perception tells me otherwise. I feel that I can make my mark and leave a positive impression on those around me…or at least try.
This image takes me back to a video clip that our ministry team showed at church one Sunday. The Awe Factor of God shows just how magnificent He is in His creation. The magnitude of space is indescribable.
I had a serious discussion with a student just yesterday. He came in to the office, sat down and asked me some deep, spiritual questions and I found myself having a difficult time explaining my thoughts. I know what I feel and what I believe but vocalizing those thoughts was hard. The main question he asked me and it has stuck with me is “if in the end we are all we have left, then why does everything else matter?” WOW….I honestly could not find a way to answer that. I know how I feel but putting those thoughts into words has been a challenge and a constant thought on my mind since our conversation.
How would you have answered the student’s question?
ME!!!! It’s ME!!! I won!!!
I found out that I am known as the MEANEST teacher in the high school. I can not tell you how happy that makes me. OKAY OKAY…let me explain.
The upper classmen have told the freshmen that I am the meanest and hardest teacher…little do they know that I actually love every single one of them. I just have high expectations. Such as
NO you may not use a pencil in my class….use pen. Be confident in what you write. Make it legible and stand by it.
NO you may not say what and yeah in my class…you may say excuse me and yes ma’am. get use to being polite. It is what society expects.
NO you may not say ugly words in my class such as suck, hate, shut up…I loathe those words…increase your vocabulary.
NO I do not allow you to sleep in my class…what I am saying is important and rudeness is not tolerated.
YES you may have snacks in my room…I understand that you are growing teenagers and I have no idea if you ate dinner last night or breakfast this morning…just clean up after yourself…and try and make it a healthy snack!
YES I understand that you also have a life and responsibilities outside of Room 102…talk to me, I am human and I understand that you may not have finished your homework last night because you had to babysit…AGAIN.
YES I care about you…I want you to succeed and become a contributing member to society.
Little so they know that I do care and all of my meanness will be understood later in life.
Well, it’s nearly over. I can’t believe how fast the first week of school went. I have the feeling that this is going to be a great year. I forget how awesome freshman are. I haven’t taught them since my first year….7 years ago. The innocence mixed with cockiness (trying to compensate for being low man on totem pole) is interesting to watch.
Is it just me or do 14-15 year olds seem smaller than they were ten years ago???
I promised some interesting stories…sorry to say that nothing has been noteworthy quite yet. I do have a student who I plan on making my top priority. He is a student that puts up a lot of defensive…acts hard (tough) but I think there is more than mets the eye. We will call him “J.” I hope to see him positively improve over the course of the year.
P.S. Thank goodness for Advocare’s SPARK…not sure I could have made it through 2pm without one. Teachers….this stuff is your friend. One little packet gives you awesome energy and mental focus without feeling jittery and its sugar free. Contact me and I can share more about it. SPARK comes in 6 delicious flavors!!!
And we are off…..
For many of us in the world of education, Monday is the day! I say that with an exclamation point because I am so ready for Monday to come. I can not wait to see the awesome kids that I will be teaching. I can not wait for the sound of chatter and lockers slamming during passing period. I can not wait to have lunch with my fellow co-workers. I am so excited!!
I am that teacher that gets excited about in-service, but I am happy it’s over and we can start doing what we were chosen to do- impact students’ lives, educate our future leaders and spread hope and love to those that so desperately seek (need) it. Remember why we do it. It is ultimately ALL for the students…even the “bad” ones.
I am sure I will have funny stories this year, as I am teaching all freshman…don’t worry, I will share them!
Have a great school year and thank you again for taking the time to read my thoughts!!
There are not a whole lot of moms out there that will openly admit what I am about to….I am very thankful for the fact that I have a job outside of the house! Let me clarify… I have the utmost respect for the moms that work in the home. That in itself is one tough job.
This is the first summer that I have stayed home in my 6 years of teaching…no summer school, no summer job….nothing. Home with a 3 and 1/2 year old and a teething 1 year old. My nerves are shot and my house is not clean. I entertain and love on my kids all day…there is no time for cleaning. When they nap, I workout,shower and grab a little tiny nap myself.
I am on a 3 week count down until I go back to work. I personally am a better mom because I do get out of the house everyday. My patience level is better and I am super excited to see mykids when I get home.
My thankful point today….that I am a working mom!!!
What is your thankful point for today?
So I am not going to start off this post by apologizing for my absence….I will simply say HELLO AGAIN! Times have been quite chaotic around the household and now I have getting back on track…for today anyway. Since I last wrote:
- Work ended….I helped graduate a great group of kiddos that I will truly miss, but I am excited to see them enter their next chaper of life. I pray that God will take them all in the direction of good choices and that they are all safe!
- I accepted a new position – I will teach 5th grade self contained next year. I am sooo excited to be working with this age group and the people at the elementary just seem amazing! It was VERY bittersweet for me to leave the high school. That has been my work family for over 5 years and I will miss them dearly!
- Summer grad school has started – I am trying my very best to stay on top of all my assignments while enjoying my summer.
- The remodel of our downstairs is 95% complete! I at least have a working toilet downstairs…no more pregnant calls to the potty UPSTAIRS 2-3 times a night! Thank you to the Dennings and my BIL who helped put it back together!
- Jaxon and I are having a blast everyday together. I absolutely love watching him grow and learn at such an amazing rate. This will be a hard summer to leave. I will however NOT miss Toy Story 2. We watch it/or its at least on the TV, at least twice a day. He is a bit obsessed!
- NOW….we are awaiting the birth of our daughter, Maddox. She has already stated that she will be a handful. I have been in the hospital twice with false labor and at my last doctor’s appt we discovered that she is breech so I have a scheduled c-section next Tuesday. I am so ready to meet her!
SO what now???
We plan on taking the rest of the summer and just relaxing and enjoying every minute of it. I will not stress about school, work or anything else. I will dwell in every moment the Lord bestows upon my family. I have been blessed with amazing family members and friends that will take care of us and shower us with love.
Isn’t that what life is all about?
“There is nothing better for a man, than that he should eat and drink, and that he should make his soul good in his labor. This also I saw, that is was from the hand of God.”
Isn’t it the pits when you have so much to say and that one time a year….you have no voice to say it with? As of right now, I alternate sounding like a gaspy old lady that has smoked a billion cigs or a man. I am not sure which is better. Trying to tame a 12th grade class of rowdy kids when I can barely hear myself. Now I have to try and communicate with my son without scaring him half to death. I can just imagine what is going through his head….MOMMY, WHAT”S WRONG WITH YOUR VOICE??????????
I ALSO have a lot to say in my book writing process. The problem is….I don’t know where to start. I have begun and I am stuck. I have it in my head, however getting it out on the computer is a whole other story.
I need my new MacBook Pro that I will be purchasing for myself for Christmas. I of course get the writing bug at 2AM…but it’s just to dang cold to get out of bed…(this is wear the laptop comes in!) My hubs will love me for that!